Shawn Mendes recently made an appearance on the Man Enough podcast, where he revealed how terrified he was of being evil following an argument he had with girlfriend Camila Cabello.

 

“I raised my voice at her and she was like, ‘I don’t like it when you raise your voice. Why did you raise your voice?’ And I got so defensive,” he said. “I was like, ‘I wasn’t raising my voice at you!’ And I did raise my voice at her. And then I felt her shrink and I felt me grow and I was like, ‘Oh god, this is the worst,’ “ Shawn shared.

 

 

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“I’m so terrified of being evil. I’m so scared to be bad.  I don’t want to be bad.  Maybe there even is bad inside of me, and I have to just accept that that exists, and that other part of me, he’s just got to be here and we’ve just got to work together until eventually he gets worked in all of the trauma and all of the kinks get rubbed out of him and he’s okay,” he says.

 

 

 

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Shawn continues, “But I can’t avoid the fact that there’s a little bit of darkness inside of me,” Mendes continued. “And letting that darkness kind of be present is a horrible feeling.  I made it about my evil and my fear, and she comforted me, and then it took me like 20 minutes of us separately reading our books to be able to come back to her and be like, ‘God, that was a whole thing and I’m really sorry.’  You think you’re being vulnerable and saying the right thing, but you’re really just defending yourself even better.”

 

Shawn and Camila recently celebrated their two-year anniversary.  Check out their cute Instagram tributes for one another below.

 

 

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